Tuesday, 31 July 2007 8:54:00 pm
痛苦是教我们成长而不是教我们退缩
It seems only yesterday that
my two darlings are babies
Times flies
I can only live on memories
Monday, 30 July 2007 10:47:00 pm
Today is my dearest Mummy's birthday
A bit of things cropped up in the morning making my Mummy
Very sad and angry that she wanted to called off the celebration
But my Sister managed to "sweet-talk" her
So we carried on with our plan to celebrate for her
Daddy said she will cheer up when she sees her grandchildren
Sister ordered a chocolate cake
I bought food to cook
Forgotten that today is Monday and there wasn't lots of food for sale
No $ so just buy food that are cheap, but it's the thoughts that counts
So I just grab whatever I think is nice and bring it to my Mum's house
My daddy wasn't working and he cooked while I prepared the food
Sat there and peeled the bean-sprout for an hour, so boring
Brother came home, banged the door wake my Mummy up, sickening guy
Sister came back, changed and went to fetch Jaz and Cheryl
Dinner was late cos daddy can't finished cooking by 7pm
We started dinner at 7.30pm, late for the children
After which we blow the candles and cut the cake
The moment that Jaz and Cheryl have been waiting for
Mummy was really smiling from her heart, so sweet
Daddy was so happy too as it's always his wish
To have the whole family seated together for a meal
Sister, Brother, Hubby and Me were happy too to see Mummy enjoying
I think the happiest peoples are still Mummy, Jaz and Cheryl
世上只有妈妈好
Thursday, 26 July 2007 10:25:00 pm
Good News
Sec 4 are able to come back to Modern Dance
On the both days instead of only Saturday
Hopefully that will help to boast the morale
Of the rest of the students staying back
Attendance was bad even though
Grace allow them to come back on Thursday
They learned new steps for any up-coming performances
Took some video but was not very clear
Ying Ying and Kar Hoon was at the side looking at them
Forgotten why they never joined in
Ying Ying had a fun time making fun of Grace and me
Both of us can't stand her
Don know whether to get angry or to smile
She's really a "Happy Fruit" always making people smile
Alot of things are in my mind and I feel so bad and bored at heart
I need an outlet to channel all my 闷气 away
I think I will break down sooner if I continue like that
I know the source of my 闷气 but I just got no courage to face it
The only answer I will get is that I think too much
Sometimes I felt like doing what Yvette say
Drop everything and anything that are related to them and just go
"sms" "msn" "call" "meeting up with them"
But i know that I won't be able to do that
Maybe I'm too soft-hearted
Maybe I'm really living on memories
Every time when I think about it
My heart will be so painful
I thought I have found someone but it turn out like that
I'm not sure if it's something that I have done wrong
Or is there a misunderstanding
Tuesday, 24 July 2007 12:27:00 pm
Dear Friend,
When u feel like crying....call me. ! . ! . !
I dont promise that I will make u laugh,
but I can cry with u.
If one day u want to
run away dont be afraid to call me.
I dont promise to ask u to stop......
but I can run with u.
If one day u dont want to listen to anyone.....
call me.
I promise to be there for u
but also promise to remain quiet.
But one day if u call......
and there is no answer.....
come fast to see me.
Perhaps I need you.
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WHATS ME W/0UT U . . .
Sunday, 22 July 2007 10:49:00 pm
I have officially joined the DANCE MINISTRY in Bethal Assembly
The feeling was great, very very great
That's the kind of feeling that I had
When I first joined the Worship Ministry in River
The feeling of being so happy and free
The feeling is unexplainable
Kailing supposed to coach me on the basic but she was not free that day
So in the end, CB, the leader of the Dance Ministry coach me personally
She wanted me to start with the weapon "Tambourine"
And I was so nervous, happy, scared and thankful
CB taught me right from the very basic
"How to hold the tambourine the right way"
"How to hit and tap the tambourine the right way"
It's tough to remember but thank God I've done my homework before
Holding my "weapon", I'm ready to learn
And take on whatever comes onto me
"Check" "Tap" "Hit" "Zip" "Shiver" "Loop" "Step Ball Step"
Among all, "Step Ball Step" is the hardest to learn
But it was no problem for me. KEKE. Learnt it within half and hour
After which, Peggy taught me the first pattern "Acts"
Doing the hand pattern was easy but with the feet movement is hard
I have always been bad in hand and feet coordination
Took me a while to coordinate my hand and feet
First 8 counts was easy together with the feet movement
From the 8th count to the 9th count was messy for me
As I kept forgetting my feet movement
After trying for another half an hour, I finally got it
So after a full one hour, I finally can show the pattern "Acts"
CB asked me to rest while they practice flags.
Actually, I was not tired but I'm full of energy
My palm was full of blisters because of the tambourine but it's normal
Learning stages are always difficult
After practice, we went for dinner and fellowship together
Was happy that I managed to learn up at least one pattern
Even after reaching home
I was so energetic that I took up my tambourine book
And go through whatever CB had taught me
I believed in doing my best in whatever I've committed
And once I made up my mind, I'll not be wishy washy
And doubting this and that
I had an agreement with CB
And I promised her to do my best in these 6 months
Before we will sit down and renew our agreement
I pray that God will continue to guide me through all the way
I'm taking this big step of faith
And I know that I'll have the support of people
***During the worship before the practice***
My neck was aching
My lower back hurts
My stomach was aching
My right leg had a sharp pain
Everything was just not right and I knew that it was a spiritual welfare
I experience it once just before I served in the Worship Ministry in River
I knew I just got to get through it and it will be over
I knew that "something" is stopping me from joining the Dance Ministry
And CB agreed with me so no problem, I went through it
And everything was ok throughout the practice
And even after the practice, there were no pains and aches
I WON THE MOMENT I PICKED UP MY WEAPON
Friday, 20 July 2007 9:49:00 pm
Had a dinner gathering with my neighbour on Friday
Although we live next door but we are always so busy with our own lives
That we seldom slowed down to say "Hi, How are you?"
So a dinner will be a good chance to catch up with each other
We have steamboat at my house
I invited Joanne and Shiyun for dinner as well
Both of them helped me alot with the preparation of the food
Time was short but with everyone helping
We got the dinner started at 6.30pm
Shiyun helped to cut the Vegetables and Tofus and Hotdogs
Joanne helped to peel the Cockles in the shells
And it's really really damn hard work
Cos the stupid shell is so hard and they are very stubborn
And you got to practically used your fingernails
To peel open the shell and take out the cockles
So in the end, she ended with her fingernails chipped
I really thank her for the hard work
As she don have to do all these work at home
But she got to do all these and get herself smelly because of a dinner
Had a great time chatting with each other and catching up
Ended at 8 plus so I send Joanne and Shiyun to the bus stop
After which I go back and continue my dinner with my neighbour
Just want to say a
BIG THANK YOU TO JOANNE AND SHIYUN
FOR HELPING TO PREPARE AND TO EAT
Thursday, 19 July 2007 7:53:00 pm
There's no practice for Bedok Town today
As Grace is on course and Meryln is on MC
Boring as I thought that I could go and see the amazing race
Jon said that it's quite fun as they ran here and there
So fed-up with the stupid PC that is in my living room
So much trouble with the stupid computer
First: cannot start up
Second: monitor got no signal
Third: cannot find hard disk
So got down to solve the problem one by one
Got the system working den monitor no signal
Got the signal back den now I can't start up again
The PC is driving me very crazy
The Apple Mac is 100 time better then the PC
I will try repairing it again and I believe I can repair it
With my knowledge of the PC computer
If one day, I can't repair anymore
I'll throw it down from 11 storey
Wednesday, 18 July 2007 9:25:00 pm
Every Wednesday seems to be Swimming day
Great!!! Exercise is good for the body
But i think we got to stop soon as "N" level is coming
And the students need to study
Stress will build in for the students
Bu then I think they will need to relax even more
If not they will most likely
To break down before their "N" level
Only 9 person turned up today
Hao, Jon, Ken, Poh, Boon, Dom, Yun, Ying and me
Sad that Jian Wei, Kar Hoon and Joanne are not with us
Few of us but still fun
Ying and Dom not on talking terms. "Cold War"
Avoiding each other, Mood was bad
So she swam alone while Dom swam with us
Can't imagine that Yun can swim
I tot she belongs to our category but she surprised me
Poh caught hold of my feet twice and tickled me
So itchy but fun
Ken and Yun called me "SHASHA"
I was so pissed off and so pai sai
One started and everyone starts to follow
We starts to call everyone by the nickname
So funny and childish but we all enjoy it
No hard feelings, guys. It's just a joke
We have "LeeLee", "KenKen", ShaSha",
"PohPoh", "BoonBoon", "DomDom" and "HaoHao"
They are into "drowning game" and "pulling game"
The guys drowning each other, drowning yun and me
I screamed alot yesterday becos I was always being taken by surprise
Swam 2 laps with Dom, 2 laps with yun and 2 laps with hao
Very very tired but enjoyable
Left at 6.00pm to fetch the children
Waited for Sebastian at the MRT to go for dinner
After dinner, went home and hung the clothing
Watch TV and sleep at 9.45pm
2:34:00 pm
Went for a morning gathering by the dance ministry this morning
First time joining them for practice and worshiping God
Was in doubt as whether can I catch up
And whether am I suitable to be in Dance Ministry
Or whether am I making the right choice in joining the Dance Ministry
CB, Vivian, Kailing, Ps Elaine, Petsy, Belinda and me were at the practice
Surprised to see Kailing as usually she's not very involved in the ministry
Well, but it was great with her there as she entertained us with her jokes
We were laughing and joking there and had a nice fellowship
Learn about the patterns named "Armour of God" and "Wings"
It was tough but with some encouragement, I get going
Kailing was assigned to teach me and she was very patient
So patient until I'm so embarrassed to keep making the same mistake
At the end of the session, We gathered round and prayed for each other
CB and Kailing prayed for me
The Holy Spirit touched me and I cried like nobody business
Tears kept flowing down my cheek and I just couldn't stop
After everything, CB said to me:
"Don doubt when you want and wish to serve God
Follow your heart and let God do the rest"
So I can't helped but asked her, why did she say such words to me?
She told me that she can sense that
I'm in a doubt whether should I join the Ministry or not
Upon hearing her word, I know that she is the one to lead me on
No more doubts or regrets, able to serve God is an honour
"Since God has given you the abilities to dance, why waste it
Use it well and serve him, worship him and honour Him"
Was crying like a small baby
CB hugged me and feel like mummy hugging a daughter
Vivian and Kailing hugged me too..
Proud and Glad to be in BETHAL DANCE MINISTRY
Tuesday, 17 July 2007 3:27:00 pm
A Christian can never be with a non-Christian
Not my word but God's word.
I find it to be very true and right..
Being with a non-Christian is a headache.
The choice you make will crash with each other
The road is not going to be easy
Being a 10yrs Christian myself,
There are times that I find myself back-sliding
And defying God's Word but nothing good will come out of it
Sometime even the most basic commandment of God, I can't fulfill
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart"
When you are not a strong Christian
Imagine what will happen
When you have your partner, you tend to put him or her first
Do you have any place for God in your heart?
Search your heart and think before you answer
People around you can only give you advice
You can choose to ignore and choose to listen
But eventually It's still you who have to make ultimate decision
OUTSIDERS SEES THING BETTER AND CLEARER
DEN YOURSELF IN CERTAIN THINGS ESPECIALLY RELATIONSHIP
Saturday, 14 July 2007 9:13:00 pm
Saturday=Bedok Town 2nd practice..
Attendance was worse den Thursday..
Why like that??
Only 8 person attended the practice.
1) Joanne Koh
2) Choo Ying Ying
3) Loh Jia Jia
4) Jonathan Lee
5) Lee Jian Hao
6) Fatin
7) Pan Jing
8) Foong Shi Yun
Shi Yun has been on MC for 3 month
So even though she joined in, it's no use.
She got tired after doing a bit of work-out
Can't really expect alot from her..
Joanne is trying her best.
Happy that she didn't give up even though it's tough
And she's having cramp from the previous practice
Ying Ying is not concentrating and focusing.
Guess that she's not feeling good in her heart
As she's having problem with her mum.
Jia Jia was great today
Kept on asking me to help her..
Glad to see her so cheerful and back in dance club
Pan Jing was slow but no problem
She will be able to catch up if she put in more effort
Glad to see her back in dance club
Fatin was great and she will do well in the area of dance
She look so cute after cropping her hair
Jonathan seems to have no problem with all the asanas and postures
He's great.. Have not lose his form after a long break
Jian Hao is great too.. He's able to carry out the postures gracefully
No problem with more difficult stuff for him.
The guys are great.
No problem with all the things that Sebastian is teaching
Problem lies with the girls. Big Big problem..
Went for breakfast cum lunch after practice
Was a fun time getting together, joking, talking
We decided to go swimming after sitting for a long time in the MAC
Had a hard time persuading Joanne Koh to go swimming
She gave an answer: wait for me to wake up den I tell you
Wa lao, what kind of answer is that
Finally, She decided to go and we were all very happy
Meet at 4.30pm at the swimming complex
Only Jian Hao, Jian Wei, Kennath, Jonathan
Ying, Joanne and Me went
Though little people but it was fun
Would rather have little people going
Den let me see the one I don wish to see
Too bad, Kar Hoon can't join us or else it'll be more fun
Had a fun time in the pool
Trying to drown Joanne but it wasn't intentional
Just wan to have some fun but I know that you are quite unhappy
Sorry.. I know after doing something, a sorry won't help
What I can do is to go swimming.
Managed to swim a few laps with Jian Wei and Jian Hao
Was quite hard but it's really encouraging.
Swam till about 7pm before going off
Thanks Jian Hao and Jian Wei
Friday, 13 July 2007 9:42:00 pm
Wondered whether can a guy cook?? Haha
I'm glad to marry a guy who knows how to cook..
So lucky and fortunate..
Sebastian cook dinner today and we all enjoy it..
Simple meal and soup but it's delicious..
Chicken rice with mushroom
Soup cooked with chicken bones
7:52:00 pm
Today was a shit day... So damn boring..
Had a tough choice choosing who to meet so in the end, forget it..
All also don meet.. Stay at home is the best..
Had a chat with my adviser and finally straighten out my thinking..
She said I'm like the old her struggling between
peoples that she know and peoples she cherish..
Had a fun time talking and come out with a conclusion.
No matter what, I will still choose "her"
Because true friendship are hard to come by.
A poem to share
"A friend is like a "ring", always close to your hand and heart
But if you get "careless", It'll slips out of your finger
And eventually out of your heart."
So dont even let your true friend slip out of your life.
It's sounds right and true
So frens, cherish and treasure your fren now.
Don wait till they are gone before you regret.
Thursday, 12 July 2007 9:27:00 pm
Modern Dance resume for Bedok Town.. Attendance was poor, very poor..
Only 10 students attended but 5 of them were from Secondary 4.
Those who attended were:
Sec 4 = Joanne Koh
Sec 4 = Choo Ying Ying
Sec 4 = Lau Kar Hoon
Sec 4 = Jonathan Lee
Sec 4 = Lee Jian Hao
Sec 3 = Siti Zahara
Sec 3 = Loh Jia Jia
Sec 2 = Gao Chao
Sec 2 = Nigel
Sec 1 = Fatin
So pathetic right..
Surprised to see Jia Jia, Siti and Gao Chao back in the dance club..
Well, just continue and see how..
I only probably expect Fatin to come back..
For the Sec 4, they beg Grace to allow them to come back,
At first she refused cos it's time for the sec 4 to step down
From their CCA den she relented
And allowed them to go back for this week's practice..
Was a bit sad so went to discuss with Sebastian
And he suggested me talking to Mr Raihan
And see if there's any hope.
So I decided to talk to Grace and give her all sort of crap
Before she said she got to discuss with Merlyn
But her looks told me that I have won her over with my craps..
Sebastian is being tough on them..
Starting of the class is Sun Salutation, 3 sets slow, 8 sets fast and 2 sets slow..
I only did fast Sun Salutation in Vinyasa Multi-level.
Sebastian has became a killer after he came back from INDIA.
WatcH OUT, PeoPle.. hAhA..
The students have became much lazier esp someone la..
I see already also don know what to say man..
Headache..
